The Beginning of My Health Challenges

At the tender age of seven, I was diagnosed with a general autoimmune disorder. By nine, I learned I had chronic Hashimoto's and hypothyroidism. While I experienced other health issues earlier, the details are hazy now.

As a child, I didn't fully grasp the severity of my condition. My parents were my primary advocates, and I have faint memories of emergency room visits and a year of eating only oatmeal, rice, and boiled vegetables. My childhood activities were largely confined to indoor excursions like museum visits or home-based projects.

I was fortunate to have a dedicated mother, who tirelessly worked to make my challenging years a bit more manageable. I cherish memories of her creating engaging activities for us and our frequent trips to the library and museums, which sparked my love for history and reading.

In search of treatments, my parents explored various options. We consulted autoimmune specialists who suggested I carry an EpiPen and take strong medications. After experiencing adverse effects, they turned to experimental therapies.

Thus began a grueling journey. To support my digestive and immune systems, I adopted a strict vegetarian diet, eliminating gluten, dairy, soy, corn, and citric acid. The list was extensive—goodbye gummy bears, ice cream, and mayonnaise sandwiches. As a child, I rebelled against the restrictions, often sneaking cafeteria food to feel "normal" among my peers.

Unfortunately, this rebellion only exacerbated my condition, leading to severe eczema and psoriasis. My arms and legs became blistered and painful, prompting me to forgo shorts and t-shirts. My parents were at their wit's end, and hope seemed distant.

After many long years, we finally discovered a treatment that alleviated my eczema and psoriasis—just in time, as my doctor warned of potential premature arthritis. However, this meant further dietary restrictions, and as a preteen, I had to avoid all my favorite foods while also cutting back on sugar and fried items. Mentally, it was an uphill battle.

Every occasion posed challenges—birthday celebrations, dining out, school functions, and even grocery shopping often left me in tears. The hardest part was how others perceived and treated me. My parents had to decline international school trips because the travel agency couldn’t accommodate my dietary needs. Friends’ parents would worry whenever I visited, which, despite good intentions, made me feel like an outsider. Many relatives labeled me as the "sick" child, and nothing stung more than explaining my limitations and enduring the ensuing awkward silence.

As I entered high school, my weight dropped dramatically—not by choice, but due to genetics and my chronic conditions, which made it difficult to maintain a healthy weight. I faced hurtful comments from relatives, classmates, and even strangers who called me "anorexic." Those words were painful, and I lacked the vocabulary to express my hurt. I began to internalize the belief that there was something wrong with me.

Another symptom was having cold hands and feet, and by age 14, I had about 35% of my hair turned white.

The remarks seemed never-ending:

"Why are your hands so cold?"

"You look like a grandma!"

"Cold heart."

"Ice queen."

Such comments can leave a lasting impact, especially when you’re young and seeking validation.

At one point, I simply surrendered. I grew weary of the fight and began eating whatever I wanted, reverting to my reckless behavior of sneaking cafeteria lunches. It was a rash decision, devoid of logic.

The Healing Process

Eventually, I shifted my mindset. I transitioned from apathy to a determination to fight for my health and heal from within. It wasn’t a simple or quick journey, but gradually, I transformed. I implemented lifestyle changes, broke negative patterns, and surrounded myself with supportive individuals.

It felt like I underwent a profound metamorphosis—a true transformation. Our mindsets hold incredible power; they can heal, break, and redefine who we are.

Even now, I continue to heal, shedding old habits and striving to love myself each day. Activities like Muay Thai have empowered me, instilling strength and confidence. Cooking has also been transformative, giving me control over my diet and reinforcing my empowerment. Finding joy in life's little moments and maintaining a positive mindset have become my greatest allies.

So, if you're grappling with health challenges, remember that you're not alone. I wish you all the best on your journey! - Nia💚

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