Chapter 1: The Weight of Expectations

During my formative years, I belonged to the last group that was warned about the dire consequences of not attending a reputable four-year university. The messages were clear: without a degree, one risks being labeled as a loser, a failure, or, my personal favorite, not a "real man."

Despite these pressures, I pursued higher education, earning a master's degree in Game Design, yet I spent the next two decades intermittently working in the culinary field. This on-and-off pattern included my time as a game journalist and designer, albeit at a minor level.

As my story unfolds, I faced significant challenges, including drug addiction and mental health issues—factors often overlooked during my upbringing. The fallout from these struggles was devastating: I harmed a woman, derailed a career, and, most tragically, affected a child's life irreparably. In an attempt to atone, I focused on raising a young man who ultimately didn't require my guidance.

Despite these tumultuous experiences, I somehow emerged from the darkness, supported by a family that remains by my side. Recently, I reflected on how grim my past had been, often failing to recognize that my continued existence is a miracle in itself.

Section 1.1: The Descent into Darkness

There are moments when I find myself staring into the abyss, consumed by despair. However, I realize that I no longer want to dwell in that place.

Subsection 1.1.1: A New Beginning

Chapter 2: Embracing Change

Now, I find myself on a path of recovery, determined not to disappoint my wife and daughter again. I refuse to let them down.